"You must become splendid again."
- Hélène Cixous
It's been pouring since early morning. I don't remember the last time we had such a solid rainfall, but then, I have a pretty lousy memory. I'm drinking coffee in the afternoon, something I don't ordinarily do. But I work this evening, which seems as good an excuse as any.
It's the last week of school for our daughter. She writes exams this week, and then on Thursday says goodbye to Junior High forever. I'm very glad for her. Junior High has been rubbish in so many ways. Yesterday not a single one of her friends said happy birthday to her. What can a person even say about that?
As for me, I'm trying to become centred after our recent busy time. The last month has been a bit of a blur - my trip to Ottawa for TWUC AGM, Rob's show at the Douglas Udell show (now taken down), Chloe's grade 9 farewell ceremony, a couple of freelance gigs for me, extra shifts at work, and then Chloe's birthday yesterday. So I'm trying to regroup now and plan for the summer, to see what seems possible to fit in writing-wise for the next couple of months. To see what might fit into my work and family schedule. Often at this time of year, I despair a little for my writing, because I know it's going to be a struggle to get to it. This year, I have a pretty okay first draft of my book Transactions with Beauty, which I've talked about before and which is based on some of my ramblings on this blog. It needs a lot of work, I know that. But it's a different kind of work than writing is and somehow it seems manageable. That I will set my goals and that I can accomplish them.
"You must become splendid again." These are words that I want to use as my mantra this summer.
I took these yesterday after a brief shower of rain. When the sun came out later in the day, I took some of the photos, then went in, made dinner, etc. Afterwards, came out again and the sun was coming through the flowers at a different angle and the bokeh, I could see in the camera, was wild and colourful. What is it about such bokeh that makes me insanely happy? It was after a tiring shift at work, a good shift, but a draining one. I've not been sleeping well, I've been tired, but taking these, I was awake.
Some of the shots are very similar, but the bokeh is what they're about and the slightest shift in angle and light can enliven and alter the bokeh.
The Virginia Creeper is having one of its best years yet.
This one dahlia plant has already bloomed so beautifully, and more to come.
Similar scene, but I loved the purple / orange bokeh....
And this is really the magic bokeh:
These last two shots make my heart sing. Who knows why....